Tuesday, May 31, 2005

letter

Hey schziso,
i felt at ease and peaceful. My anger seems gona way. I have an idea that i am going to paint a flash of a drop of water in grey silver white and black on the big canvas which i could find, I also have another idea that iwill throw out all the furniture in the basement to make lousy studio which i can invite my friends who like photography poet come to share thier works; just like a talent show. What do you think schziso. ?
B

Me both the spider and the fly; imprisoned , unfree in its homeland

I made a copy of the song " valentine to Tagore" for his Birth day. Eight months later he asked me what it meant?
I said " i duno, it'd been a while", I lied.

Parking for customers only


Parking for customers only
Originally uploaded by bofo.

You're in Sante Fe. Our Chile is hot ( stated on the menu)

The chained hydran


The chained hydran
Originally uploaded by bofo.

The old fire house joke


The old fire house joke
Originally uploaded by bofo.

Got jobs


Got jobs
Originally uploaded by bofo.

Monday, May 30, 2005

oh no! another flash light ?


oh no! another flash light ?
Originally uploaded by bofo.
Forget about the red eyes reduction, no more " ooh ooh look here " please!

Momy, i got to pee!


Momy, i got to pee!
Originally uploaded by bofo.
he meant it!

it is not a sun shine up


it is not a sun shine up
Originally uploaded by bofo.
it is badly graded " A"

Karate kid on a trash can


Karate kid on a trash can
Originally uploaded by bofo.
it's more than a photo op...it 's being silly! i would do it again if i could.

the bitch seat


the bitch seat
Originally uploaded by bofo.
the bikers say that the back seat is the bitch seat. On ride with a view like this , i want to be a bitch. Oh yeah!

where is the bee?


where is the bee?
Originally uploaded by bofo.
Land ur feet on me, will u?

White rabit- Jefferson Airplane-

Go ask Alice
i think she knows....

They - Jem

I am sorry
so sorry
do u see
what i see

Roanock Star


Roanock Star
Originally uploaded by bofo.
88 feet tall at 1800 elavation, P said it was called the progressive spirit star. I nodded my head and replied " it's big".

Abbott Lake, VA


Abbott Lake, VA
Originally uploaded by bofo.
Walking along the lake trail...

Otter peak, VA


Otter peak, VA
Originally uploaded by bofo.
My brother in law drove me here for a walk. I slept most of the way up here. He said i missed the beautiful overlooks of the Blue Ridge. I said " next time".

Feeding



Originally uploaded by bofo.
Emily was one month old. It was special moment for me to hold her in my arms. My sister taught me how to bottle feed her. She drank almost 3 oz of milk. I was so proud.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Emily

i am going to fly to newport , VA in 9 hours. I am going to see my niece Emily for the very first time. She is almost a month old. My Sister and brother in law will have a party for her on sunday. I bought some cute outfits for her. It felt so stranged to shop baby clothes. It reminded me that how tiny we are as babies. Babies are angels. They really are. They should wear wings instead of diapers !

letter

Hey Schziso,
Lately i was kind of agitated. friends asked how did i feel? I Just asnwered i am ok automatically. I was not true to my own feeling. It kind of hard for me to say oh well i was not ok. Then I had to explained what it was i felt. May be i did not even know what it was that i felt. I laughed it away with some dull humor. I should learned to say it loud how i felt rather than swallowed it with some phony assurance " i will be fine". I am fucking angry. At what? whom? The pathethic thing about it is that i did not know Why i am angry. Reading book; doing yoga and meditation, i blanketed my self in false " happy lovingkindness". I was edgy. I wished i could walked to a shore and screamed my head off. Then put my head back on when i done!
By the way you told me about love and loving. What did you know about love, Schziso? Get a tatoo.
Your other,
B

Friday, May 27, 2005

Letter

Dear Bao,
I have been knowing you so long. I heard your voice in my head. I See your face shadowed mine. Have you ever been in love? or Are you able to love? You said love is Tatoo . It was so beautiful colored and lined . I believed it was nothing else but a sadistly scar of delusion in which you might thought you were once loved. Love is not a inked picture on skin that for you just to sit and admire of. Get out under your own comfort skin and experinece Love. Would you dare? would you care?
Yours,
Schziso.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

insanity

I think i need a therapy.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Perception

i went to see sarah mclachlan 's concert tonight with T who told me that i am cocky mysterious and pyscholocialy sadist. It hurts me to know that i made hime cry and angry sometimes in the past. I did not mean it . iam glad that he since became a stronger and happier person whom i used to know. With this notion, i could be as cocky mysterious sadist as i was if that all it took. Al thou i could imagine myself being one. May he be happy.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

shade 1


shade 1
Originally uploaded by bofo.

shade 2


shade 2
Originally uploaded by bofo.

side walk 1


side walk 1
Originally uploaded by bofo.

side walk 2


side walk 2
Originally uploaded by bofo.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Selfing

Is it a process or a verb?
what is its desire or maner?
I said: bumper moo.

awakening


awakening
Originally uploaded by bofo.

Chile Co.


Chile Co.
Originally uploaded by bofo.
Hot business.

Intersection


Intersection
Originally uploaded by bofo.
An early morning about 7 am; i walked to the convention center from the hotel. I was waiting at this interesection for the red light. But there was no car and no pedestrian. There were the sun, the air and my obedience.

Meter


Meter
Originally uploaded by bofo.
H2O

Eldorado


Eldorado
Originally uploaded by bofo.
i wish was a greico so i could climb the wall. But i then would be ever a greico when i got over the wall.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Star Trek

I stayed up all nite. I got home from work and started packing. I waites for the last minute to do this. I was so tired. My mind wasn't clear. I did not where things were. This could be " seperation anxiety". Seperating from what? duno. i printed out the boarding pass; checked the weather; arranged care service...why don't just " one to beam up" as the captain said. I am leaving in an hour to New Mexico. What happened to the Old Mexico? Duno. So long.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

clip


sc00054007
Originally uploaded by bofo.
Life sometime is such pity. Dog eats dog world. Pig f-ck pig game. Do you want to bet ? Or let say how much is your bid?

self santuary

It was the daily ohm message i got yesterday from the meeting, Sel-santuary.
It said that one should not forget to seek help by trusting and believing oneself. My problem is the opposite. I seldom seek help form outside rather myself. i did it so often. It made me appeared to the outsider some how that i am secretive, mysterious and stuborn. I created a toxic self santuary which i poisoned myself slowly and comfortly. I did not say the words i love you. I did not say the words i hate myself . what is it to say I me oneself himself or itself ? May i say i am another you for all our sake.

Wrap it up

I went to see D after the monthly spiritual meeting. We talked about his coming cruise and my next trip to san fe.
He said " to wrap it up; i just wonder are we over? "
I said" you did teld me before the Argentina trip"
He said " no, you told me that"

D made fried eggs with bacon sandwich with pita bread.
It was delicious.
we made out.
I left after.
I wondered Is it matter who said what in the first place?
Wraped it up.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

windows


windows
Originally uploaded by bofo.

gate


gate
Originally uploaded by bofo.

broken door


broken door
Originally uploaded by bofo.

men room


men room
Originally uploaded by bofo.

men not at work


men not at work
Originally uploaded by bofo.

flip flop


flip flop
Originally uploaded by bofo.

bus stop


bus stop
Originally uploaded by bofo.

spit shine


spit shine
Originally uploaded by bofo.

flat tire


flat tire
Originally uploaded by bofo.

teatro


teatro
Originally uploaded by bofo.

Friday, May 13, 2005

Too sexy for ...what?

It is almost a month since i had been initmated. I had no sex drive lately. It is scary me. I remember two nights ago i was sitting at the train station going in the city. I did not know what i was thinking but i got up and walked home instead. Al thou i am not trying to be good or bad. It 's healthy to be horny. Actually it is nice to be horny. Damm it.

Fri 13th

I got off the subway and walked home. It just occured to me that today is fri 13th. With no reason i looked up the sky. I saw the power lines, few stars and drakness. As i turned the key opening the door, right before i entered my appartment , i said " there is no moon tonite". May be there was a moon which i overlooked. Maybe there was a moon which was too far i couldn't see. But for what i saw " there is no moon tonite".

where is the flower?

The vase is emtpy
The broken vase is emtpy
The vase is emptiness

Thursday, May 12, 2005

division street

i was riding my bicycle home from work tonite. I got lost as soon as i got off william bur bridge. I was cycling around unfamiliar neiborghood. I was desperate looking for someone to ask for direction to metropoliatan ave. I saw a latinos left a building on Division street. He was about hop in a SUV ! I stopped him for direction. He looked so supprised. He said Nobody stopping me at this hour ( 1 am ). It supposed to be the other way. " i will rob you bro". I smiled and pedi my bike away on the hurry. i should think twice about an SUV parked infront a rundaown house in far east wil bur . It took me 50 min to get home from work. The ride over the william bur bridge was awsome. Nobody was neither infront nor behind me. The M train passed by under. The water was so calm and dark. The rest of the ride thru wil bur and bushwish was terrified. I was scared of unfamiliar street at night and unknown danger from the drug lord zone. It was an experience. iam so graceful to make it thru this experience. would i do it again? Yes, but not geting lost and make worng turn on division street. i am silly, isn't it?

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Generation 1.5

Sad
Crying
Refugee
Unfamiliar
Related
Thankful

Sunday, May 08, 2005

three musketeres and a bitch ( in a good way )

Finally three of us met in at Jon's apartment. I arrived at 10 pm. Mabel is lovely as usual al thou she gave me attitude tonite. she is so cute and get away with it. Jon and Thierry were drinking whiskey. It is interesting to hear about the " drunk- on- command cuture " from Thierry and to discuss with Jon about " bandaras philosophy" after Thierry left. I got home and made myself some soup. I missed playing guitar after messing around with Jon's acoustic Yamaha spanish guitar. When Thierry asked me where i am planning my next trip; it then occured to me why and what really keep me on going to different places? Did i hold mysel up as a wall as Jon comment ? I might not know the answers but i am pretty sure if i got myself a guitar, i will be exciting for several day and then i will jade it as i was 2 decade ago when i had my last lesson. In short, i had a great time with Jon and Thierry.

Saturday, May 07, 2005

table for one


table for one
Originally uploaded by bofo.
i had dinner by myself before the tango show. Any other tables there were at least two guests. It took 45 min to clean the plate from starter to desert which was mozzela chesse on tomatoes wi†h basil and olive oil, bread, mushroom beef with yellow rice, flan, water with gas, cafe leche. Then i stared at the ceiling inpatiently. If i remember correctly, there were 35 tables, 6 waitors, 2 bus boys, one cashier and the manager. Live tango dinner show at San Telmo.

motion


motion
Originally uploaded by bofo.
yellow move
blue stain
silver spark
white mark

conversation


conversation
Originally uploaded by bofo.
pigeon 1: coo coo luk at those buns
pigeon 2: coo coo me gona bite that
pigeon 3: coo coo me too
pigeon 4: coo coo me do too
pigeon 5: hoo hoo :)p

solo


solo
Originally uploaded by bofo.
He played alone. His music was not lonesome.

mother day


mother day
Originally uploaded by bofo.

two cups ( as supposed to big cup )


two cups ( as supposed to big cup )
Originally uploaded by bofo.

chill

I had a dream last night that i had a terrible fever.
I woke up and felt so cold.
I then ducked under the quilt and slept some more.
iS it REAL? The dream or the fever?

Monday, May 02, 2005

Bao Quoc Nguyen


b
Originally uploaded by bofo.
May 2 1970 i was born In Saigon. Feb 22 1990 i came to new York. Spring 1997 i graduated from CCNY and licensed as registered nurse. July 4 1997 i became United Stated citizen...

popcorn

i went to see a movie by myself yesterday. it was Kung fu hustle. I was laughing so hard that i thought i getting an asthma attack, There was a guy sitting next to me with a jumbo size popcorn. I was waiting to see if he ever asked me " would you like some popcorn" . He was also by himself . I did not hear any thing beside " burping ". That popcorn must be good and i kept on hoping that he was going to ask. Til he put that empty bucket down to the floor, i realized it " never going to happen". That is ok.

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Emily

My sister Hien just gave birth for a 6 lbs 9 oz baby girl at 11:20 am april 30 2005. I am so happy for her and my brother in law Phi. I am going to see my niece Emily in Virgina at the end of May when she will be a month old. Her vietnamese name is Hong Hao.