self santuary

It was the daily ohm message i got yesterday from the meeting, Sel-santuary.
It said that one should not forget to seek help by trusting and believing oneself. My problem is the opposite. I seldom seek help form outside rather myself. i did it so often. It made me appeared to the outsider some how that i am secretive, mysterious and stuborn. I created a toxic self santuary which i poisoned myself slowly and comfortly. I did not say the words i love you. I did not say the words i hate myself . what is it to say I me oneself himself or itself ? May i say i am another you for all our sake.