A note from J

b thank you...it is beautiful and i can't really put in words how it makes me feel but the sky out is dull and grey and those shades are in my heart but also happiness too. it is so hard for me to balance. i keep falling...the thing i think about you is so true in your words and it is the thing that i will always love. i wish in some way i could stop loving it but i don't know if it possible. so it is a gift and a curse...